Dear Teddy.

“When I turned around to look at the lady, the bad man was at the door. He had a mug. He was drinking and leaning. He smiled at me and said hello. 
I felt funny inside. I wanted to go to the bathroom. I didn’t say hello back to him. My neck wouldn’t let any words come out. 
I went back to the other room where my mum was and stood next to her. I stared at the door. The bad man was there. In the light time. I told him in my brain that I didn’t be bad. I was sorry. 
I wanted to get invisible.

 

My pants got wet.”
Stockholm, JD. Dear Teddy (Dear Teddy: A Journal Of A Boy (Volume 1)) (Kindle Locations 1768-1770). The Cave. Kindle Edition. 
 

 My name is JD Stockholm. I was a victim of child abuse … That sentence was incredibly difficult to write. A few years ago, it wouldn’t have been possible. I’d rather have written, I was a co-conspirator in my child abuse. Slowly, I am learning that I was the victim.
Little Jamie was given a voice some years ago by my therapist, who thought that he needed to talk. She asked him to write to her, and when he started, he didn’t stop. I write my journey through words, poems or simply letting the child inside talk.
I have many problems as a result of my childhood. Some are simply understanding the things that happened to me; but also mental health issues. For a long time, I thought that I was bad and I was alone in everything. I’ve since found that isn’t true.
Anyone reading the Dear Teddy stories, please sit, listen and hold Jamie’s hand as he talks. If you were a childhood superhero like Jamie was, then know you are not alone.
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Dear Teddy (Book 1)

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Telling Teddy (Book 2)

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Stupid Boy (Book 3)

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Goodbye Teddy (Book 4)

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Dear Mr. Ted (Boxset 1-4)

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Dark Ramblings

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If I were to die

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I write in my journal as much as I can. I talk to Mr. Ted. He is my only friend. He understands when the bad man comes. He holds my hand when I have nightmares and my mummy doesn’t hear me cry. Mr. Ted doesn’t tell. He won’t say when my daddy hurts me. He keeps my secrets and my stories. I love Mr. Ted. He is the only one who loves me back.

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